Tis Morning~~

I felt exhausted when i wokeup this morning...no energy..no mood.. tired ... its been a few week in this situation.. But i heard a little voice in me ... Read the word ...!!! Then after i done so ... i felt much much better ...! Yup,truly God is here for me ... God is dealing deeply with me ... my weaknesses ... So harsh ... so pain ... so tired ... but glad that never give up ... Sometimes been cheated by temptation ... thought it will be better but when turn into it ... ><;;; Died Hard .. haha..~~ Its time to wake up .. move on as my leader says ... things happened cant change but things yet to happen is decide by us ... Been praying for "set free"..its need alot of time .. Sometimes when i think back my past ... i looking down at myself ... why ... ? I'm really do my best ... why ...?Why i let fear takeover me...? But now ... getting realized ... God knew that i'm weak in this so He put me in different situation so that i can be more and more stronger and independence ... specially in "that" area ...! Lord...now i know ... is not my strength ...But is Your strength ...! I've been always care for what others think of me ... always tried to not hurting anyone ... thats why i won't says "NO" most of the time ... But seems like it not worked and is proved now... and the worst is i'm hurting the people ard me ... What am i doing ... Gosh...i'm so weak..! ... since i says let go then i should keep my word ... not to care ... this is also my weaknesses ... sorry for disturbing and thanks for reminding and truely i meant...sorry! This morning will be a turning point to me ... start to live a life ... not for others but for Him and me myself ...! GAMBATEH ... Life can be excellent with God in me ... GAMBATEH ...