ehh... Tagged me again.... ^,^...! 5 things found in my bag: -Handphone -MP3 -PSP -Wallet -Tissue 5 things found in my wallet : -Money -Driving Lisence -Member Card -IC -ATM Card 5 favourite things in my room: -Guitar -Bed -Bible -Teddy Bears & Others... -Mobile Phone 5 things I always wanted to do: -Play board games -Go to beach -To dwell in His precence -Meet my close friend -Travell around the world 5 things I am currently into: -Missing someone badly -Listening to music -Working towards my goal -Dreaming -Bloging List out the top 5 you would wish for: -Grow into a higher level in Him -Meet/hang out with my closet friend again -Worship -A good quility camera -Laptop / Desktop [You] First Name – Ellie Nickname – Ellie Name you wish you had – Ellie What do people normally mistake your name as – None... Birthday – 19th April 1984 Birthplace – QE Time of Birth – 6am++ gua...^,^ Single or taken – Single [Your Appearence] How tall are you – don know ohh... Wish you were taller – Yup Eye color – Coklat Eye color you want - Black Natural Hair color – Black Current Hair color – Black + Coklat gua... Short or long hair – Long Ever dye your hair a bizarre color – No... Last time you did something dramatic with your hair – Purple Colour Glasses or contacts – Contacts [This or that] Flowers or Chocolates – Flowers Pepsi or Coke – Coke Rap or Rock – Rap Relationship or One night stand – Ralationship School or Work – School Love or Money – Love Movies or Music – Music Sunny or Rainy days – Sunny [Have you ever] Lied – Yes Stole something – Yes Smoked – Yes Hurt someone close to you – Yes Broke someone's heart – Yes Had your heart broken – Yes Wondered what was wrong with you – Yes.. alwaysWish you were a prince/princess – No Liked someone who was taken – No Been in love – Yes Used chopsticks – Sure [Favorites] Flower – Too Many... Candy – Too Many Song – Way Back into Love & Freedom Song Color – Not sure Movie – Too Many Singer – Me Word – PSALM 37:7 =>REST IN THE LORD, AND WAIT PATIENTLY FOR HIM. Junk food – Yes Website – My own blog Location – Japan Animal – Dog.... I tag: -Monica -Fenny -Angela -Erin -Jac Tagged...Tagged...Tagged...

昨日，今日，明日。。。

昨日的我，犯错了，今日的我，知错了，明日的我，改过了。 但是。。。如果， 犯错了，明知错了，也后悔了但还在重复的一错再错。。。 这样的我，你还接受吗？ 这样的我，还可原谅吗？ 或者说，还值得原谅吗？ 昨日，今日，明日。。。真的，如果做了后悔的事，如果都不肯改过， 那昨日，今日，明日又有什么分别。。。 昨日的我可能不知，但到了今日，应该知了吧， 明日的我更加没有理由不知了吧！ 既然知了，为何还不下定决心呢。。。？难道还想尝试后悔的痛苦吗？

勇敢接受。。。

今天星期一，想到要做工就很懒了，但必须要呀。。。唯有接受， 想到明天，更懒但幸好对着海景，一切都值得了，超优的风景， 哈哈。。。 太多太多不一样的心情围绕着我。。。太多太多不一样的事情发生，多到让我呼吸都困难。。。 但终要面对，终要解决，终要拿起，终要放下。。。 哈哈。。。 唯有面对，唯有解决，唯有拿起，也唯有放下。。。 坦然面对，拿起信心，可以做的也只有走下去。。。勇敢的面对未来。。。 因为他在守护着我。。。也只因为他，我才能更勇敢的面对。。。 爸，谢了。。。！

不行了，真的不能呼吸了。。。

He change his mobile no. oledi...no matter how...u should tell me wats going on ahh...don let me guess here..ok! i worried...i sad...i confuse... yup...its my wrong again...then no matter how...plz show urself n tell me...ok! i don like to guess and i hope we can clear this...and i hope no matter wat happen...we clear all the missunderstanding ...rite.. waiting...等待。。。plz...

学着放手。。。

才发现，拿的起却放不下！如果再有第二次的机会，我宁愿别拿，因为我放不下。。。 痛苦，难过，亏欠，不放心。。。种种的不安伴随着我，好累！ 能不能别再痛苦，难过，亏欠，不放心。。。和不安。。。？ 可以。。。那就是“学着放下，坚强的放下，不后悔的放下。。。”

Red...Egg...~~...

this morning...supriseeee....again...from my parent...i nvr tot of they will make breakfast for me...i oso nvr tot of they will remember my "day"...haha...^^... Thanks mom..&..dad...!Thanks for ur patience to me even since i very young...i knew that i've hurt u both a lot...mom...&...dad...i will do my best for u all...i won't dump u all even if i get married coz ...i know one things...u both r the one always by my side no matter how i hurt u both...and u & dad had given me shelter...:-P...i'm really blessed than anyone else... Here...juz want to say..."i luv u and i will be there for you..."...and i will try to control my temper...and i will do my best so that you won't worry abt me again... ok...^^...

Calling from ...^^...

haha...suprise....ohh..~~...he call me from korea ohh...so sweet..,just rite after the cell group...!..hehe...^^... but how lar...so many things needs to think about...been thinking of...is he really serious abt it...is he just play ard wif me...? but better not too much in it...who know..."the higher the hope is ,the painer when fall down..." ...treat it like usual then should be enuf and ok lo... ...^^...God...help me to be steady and calm and focus on You but not others things...Amen...! Now listening to a very sad korea song..."Autumn in my Heart..."..been thinking of my past relationship...its juz like the song...very pain and sad and hurt... After that...there are no more pain only...but also some wif fear...discourage...no confident...and hard to trust...a lot alot more.... Juz hope that can get out from it...it takes my decision and initiative... God...am i done wrong all this while...? Do i still got the chance to pull it back...to recover it...? If only my strength...surely it won't or take long time...but wif Your Strength...i BELIEVE no problem....^^... Heart after recovered...time to heal...Gambateh....

Suprising...&...worrying

haiz... :-p ... why things like this happened again...iam not purposely make it happened...but it juz happened...how...? and what should i do...? Decision.... God..let u r the one take control of all this ... but not my own desire...and will...Lord! haiz...