~ 哇 ~

哇，一年又过了！总觉的时间过的好快，快的让人来不及反应。。。 今天好想陪妈妈和爸爸（家人）共度佳节，2008年的最后一天。。。 但今天又有小组聚会，怎么办呢。。。？ 好想带他们去吃晚饭，让他们放松一下。。。 爸，妈。。。过去的一年里，让您辛苦了！ 对不起，因为都没把时间放在你们身上，真的对不起。。。 但我已尽量抽出时间和尽量改改自己的脾气了。。。 我好幸福因为有你们当我的父母，虽然家里没有太多多余的钱，但我从未埋怨过。 就算有，也只是一下子的情绪而已。。。 谢谢你们为了我们付出了那么多。。。 辛苦了，也谢谢你们的耐心。。。 我爱你们。。。

Entering Year 2009

wow~stock checking almost done ... ! Hopefully all running well ... ! Gambateh ... !!! Year 2008 - Finding ... Looking ... Year 2009 - Keep Finding ... Keep Looking ... Gambateh ... !

< Time Flies >

wow ... still got few more days arrive year of 2009! Time flies ... lots of things happened , things that i hope that i never experienced it ...! But if not then i will never grow ... ^-^ ... God is great .. Thats the only word i can say ... ! He make me brave ... He make me strong ... ! No pain no gain ... Nothing comes with free ... we must paid the price for it ... ! Lord , what i gain is more than what i loss ... People might not see it, people might think that i'm not serious in many things and walk half way in many things but the most important is that i really tried my best for it or i really done my best ... i serious in everything i took ... no play play ... ! I always remember one sentence, " don't 'try' it but 'do' it ... coz if we try it ... we will give excuse to ourself not to do our best for it coz only 'try' ... but if we do it then we have no excuse for it but only can run for it ... " Thanks..! This sentence remind me alot ..! Cry ... Laugh ... curious ... weired ... question mark ... happy ... and a lot more emotion within this year ... ! So hard ... ! And lastly ...... bye bye my dear "pet" ...! I done my best ... and believe me ... this is not the ending i want ... Different people have different "style" ... if we cant suite on each other "style" ... then we have to do something ... and make some decision! All the best to you ... ^-^ ...

When I got all of Jesus back where He belonged, then the World came together.....

THE LORD IS THE EVERLASTING GOD, THE CREATOR OF THE ENDS OF THE EARTH. HE WILL NOT GROW TIRED OR WEARY, AND HIS UNDERSTANDING NO ONE CAN FATHOM. ( ISAIAH 40:28 *NIV ) The Puzzle: A father wanted to read a magazine but was being bothered by his little daughter, Kelly. Finally, he tore a sheet out of his magazine on which was printed the map of the World. Then tearing it into small pieces, he gave it to Kelly, and said, "Go into the other room and see if you can put this together." He was sure that would keep her busy all afternoon! After only a few minutes, Kelly returned and handed him the map, correctly fitted together. The father was surprised and asked how she had finished so quickly. "Oh," she said, on the other side of the paper is a picture of Jesus. When I got all of Jesus back where He belonged, then the World came together..... We may Smile and have a Wonderful Day with Jesus in the center of our picture as well for; HE TENDS HIS FLOCK LIKE A SHEPHERD; HE GATHERS THE LAMBS IN HIS ARMS AND CARRIES THEM CLOSE TO HIS HEART; HE GENTLY LEADS THOSE WHO HAVE YOUNG. ( ISAIAH 40:11 ) So always remember to keep Jesus in the center of your life, and your World will come together as well! Now , MAY THE GOD OF PEACE, WHO THROUGH THE BLOOD OF THE ETERNAL COVENANT BROUGHT BACK FROM THE DEAD OUR LORD JESUS, THE GREAT SHEPHERD OF THE SHEEP, EQUIP YOU WITH EVERYTHING GOOD FOR DOING HIS WILL, AND MAY HE WORK IN US WHAT IS PLEASING TO HIM, THROUGH JESUS CHRIST, TO WHOM BE GLORY FOR EVER AND EVER. AMEN. ( HEBREWS 13:20-21 )

Get Through

Lord, i need to get through all this ... i cant stop here ... Finally, its end ...! Is You but not me ... Amen ...!

~ missing ~

I MISS YOU ... ^-^...

很有意義的十句話！

很有意義的十句話！ 第一句 沒有一百分的另一半　只有五十分的兩個人 第二句 付出真心　才會得到真心　卻也可能傷得徹底 保持距離　就能保護自己　卻也註定永遠寂寞 第三句 通常願意留下來跟你爭吵的人　才是真正愛你的人 第四句 有時候　不是對方不在乎你　而是你把對方看得太重 第五句 冷漠　有時候並不是無情　只是一種避免被傷害的工具 第六句 如果我們之間有 1000 步的距離　你只要跨出第1步 ! 我就會朝你的方向走其餘的 999 步 第七句 為你的難過而快樂的　是敵人 為你的快樂而快樂的　是朋友 為你的難過而難過的　就是那些　該放進心裡的人 第八句 就算是 believe　中間也藏了一個 lie 第九句 真正的好朋友 不是在一起就有聊不完的話題 而是在一起　就算不說話　也不會感到尷尬 第十句 朋友就是被你看透了　還能喜歡你的人

听到了！

听到了 。。 听到了关于上帝不好的见证 。。。！ 感触是，我们所说的每一个字，每一句话。。。都好重要！ 一不小心，好消息就会变成坏消息了！ 好想替上帝澄清但伤害已造成了，怎么说都没用了。。。唯有让她休息，冷静先吧！ 也只能鼓励她了，^-^ 上帝，让我说对话吧！让我知道说的每句话都对她起到鼓励的效用吧！ 加油吧！ 也谢谢你对我说出你的心事，谢谢你对我的信任。。！ 加油。。！也努力的生活下去。。。好吗？

Thank you Lord ...

Thank you Lord for everything ... .. ^-^ .. 加油！加油哦。。各位！

d~2nd time...

de 2nd time ... it happened again ... try to avoid it but still happened again ... confuse ... sad ... dissapointed ... and so complicated ... please leave me alone ... please ...

JEREMIAH 1:4 *NKJV

Now have you ever felt that God doesn't even know you, or doesn't care what happens to you? Well, today we will take a look at just how well God knows each and every one of His Children, and how very important we all are to Him! Now before we start it is important to remember that the purpose of His intimate knowledge of us is to be Protective and Helpful, not Judgmental and Condemning! Thus an expression of His deep Love for each one of His Children! Let us begin with the words of King David; O LORD, YOU HAVE SEARCHED ME AND KNOWN ME. YOU KNOW MY SITTING DOWN AND MY RISING UP; YOU UNDERSTAND MY THOUGHT AFAR OFF. ( PSALMS 139:1-2 ) Now we may not want others to know us very well, but God already knows everything about us. FOR, THE VERY HAIRS OF YOUR HEAD ARE ALL NUMBERED. ( MATTHEW 10:30 ) YOU COMPREND MY PATH AND MY LYING DOWN, AND ARE ACQUAINTED WITH ALL MY WAYS. ( PSALMS 139:3 ) For it is also written: DOES HE NOT SEE MY WAYS, AND COUNT ALL MY STEPS? ( JOB 31:4 ) Also, NOTHING IN ALL CREATION IS HIDDEN FROM GOD'S SIGHT. EVERYTHING IS UNCOVERED AND LAID BARE BEFORE THE EYES OF HIM TO WHOM WE MUST GIVE ACCOUNT. ( HEBREWS 4:13 ) After all, MY FRAME WAS NOT HIDDEN FROM YOU WHEN I WAS MADE IN THE SECRET PLACE YOUR EYES SAW MY UNFORMED BODY. ALL THE DAYS ORDAINED FOR ME WERE WRITTEN IN YOUR BOOK BEFORE ONE OF THEM CAME TO BE. ( PSALMS 139:15 & 16 ) Now you know how intimately God knows you, and you may know Him intimately as well by reading His Letter To You! ( The Bible ) So why not pick up and read the Bible tonight? Have a Wonderful Week everyone, and know that God Loves You Dearly, for you are His Child and He even smiles every time He thinks about You! Amen.

Thanks guys ... ^-^ ...

I went to church today ... felt like very long time didn catch up with them ... infact is "true"... Couldn't sleep for the last few nite ... don't know why ... hopefully someone can walk in and tell me what was happening in me ... ^-^ ... Prayed for the whole nite before i went to bed last nite ... i do hope that i can cry out to the Lord when i was prayed but i couldn't ... something was blocking me ... tears just hardly to fall ... Why ... ? Maybe i just need to be more focus and surrender wholeheartedly to the Lord ... Trying to be strong but found out that i'm not as strong as i think ... ^-^ ... Alot of things happened in office,my house ... relationship ... and even financially (my car break down) ... ~haiz~ *gosh* ... things i don't wish to happen now happened again ... in office somemore ... *died hard* ... Clarify it asap once i found out ... coz i just don't want something bad happen "again" ... i cant bear it anymore ... *Gosh* ... Tired physically and mentally ... need more rest ...^-^ ... But God is still in the centre of my heart ... my life ... ^-^ ... Nothing can compare to Him ... ^-^ ... THANKS GOD ...

Emptiness...

Emptiness take over me ...

Busy Month ...

So busy ... busy for the whole month ... already missed 2 cell group and 1 sunday service ... and missed my media meeting too ...^-^... God ... what should i do now ... i don want to miss it but i just hope to finish my work earlier so that i can rest earlier ... *-*... Time flies ... only a while already until 10pm ... everyday worked till 10.30pm-11.00pm ... Give me strength and i don want to move into spiritual retirement so early ... i still want to continue but how to balance it ... ? is a very tough question ... i know God is blessed me alot so far ... at first when i transfered to 1B ... i really no mood to continue but in my heart ... i nvr complaint ... juz knew that God wanted me to learn something thats why He put me here ... i juz do my best for my work even tot is hard and new some more ... My income not really enuf at first actually (even if i continue to work in WS) ... But i knew that God had something for me here ... In the month of September,i had an increment (not many) ... but at least something and boss also gav me car allowance (you know..i live in Kepayan ... is very far from here ... almost 45 minute drive) ... i'm amazed of it coz at first when they transfered me to 1B ... i request for it but they didn giv me ... the reason is everyone here also no allawance ... so do i ... Now ... boss offered it to me by himself ... so supprise ...!^-^ Coz he even told me don't tell anyone coz this offer is for me only (in my company) ... and he said "if not enuf ... tell me ...!" I believe God is really doing something and boss really saw me doing my very best for this company thats why he offered me this ... (sound like a big offer .. but actually no ... juz very thank God for every little things that happened inme ... count my blessing rite ...) God is great ... really a different when u see someone with God in them and someone without God in them ... I worked with ppl who came from different background and different culture and religion ... (retail mah...)...one word ... "is not easy to work with but i hope God give me wisdom to handle it ...) Thank you Lord ... ^-^ ... Iam thank God that He gav me the opportunity to knew Him and thank God that He save my life and be my saviour ... THANK YOU LORD ... i've promised the Lord that no matter in what situation ... i nvr complaint but accept it with a joyful heart ... Coz God have a great plan for me ... Amen ...^-^... So do you ... gambateh ... ~fighting~ everybody ...^-^...

Too Short ..

Lives is too short to focus on the problem ... ^-^ Lets move forward ... and focus on the future ... ^-^ No matter what coming up ... do our best ... ^-^ ~ fighting ~ ^-^

~ 笨蛋 ~

为什么总觉得他在耍我呢？ 是我想太多。。？还是我的第六感太强。。？ 总觉的自己好像笨蛋般被耍来耍去，已经够了！ 真的受够了！ 我知道上帝是要我把这个人看清楚，所以才让我们又有多一次的交集！ 无论如何，把眼光放长远，别太在意现在。。。 上帝，谢谢您对我说话，也谢谢您在我身边。。。苦口婆心的让我了解。。。 别人或许不懂，也看不见。。。但我知道，就是您！ 我也知，如果您不在，我真的会很糟很糟。。。 如果没了您在身边，在我心里，我想我已不再是我了。。。 让这一切虽您的旨意过去吧 。。。！ 放下是拿起的开始 。。。 加油吧！

1 Peter 3:12 *NIV

FOR THE EYES OF THE LORD ARE ON THE RIGHTEOUS AND HIS EARS ARE ATTENTIVE TO THEIR PRAYER. ( 1 Peter 3:12 *NIV ) Prayer is the most powerful thing on earth! I have witnessed miracles do the prayers of others many times indeed! Therefore, DEVOTE YOURSELVES TO PRAYER, BEING WATCHFUL AND THANKFUL. AND PRAY FOR US, TOO, THAT GOD MAY OPEN A DOOR FOR OUR MESSAGE, SO THAT WE MY PROCLAIM THE MYSTERY OF CHRIST. ( COLOSSIANS 4:2-3 ) Also, when you become filled with cares and woe, or just need a friend to talk with, speak to God. For it only takes.....

Just A Little Prayer

God is ever there for those who really, really care,

He helps dispel your cares and woes with just a little prayer.

Invite the Lord into your heart,He has much love to spare,

A love He gladly would impart with just a little prayer.

Let Him know when things go wrong, no matter when or where, He can fill your heart with song with just a little prayer.

It matters not your race or creed, God does not compare.

He can fill your wants and needs with just a little prayer.

No power on earth can give to man God's immortal blessings rare.

He is the only One who can with just a little prayer.

Poet, Joseph Ferrara

如果一个女孩为你哭泣！

如果一个女孩为你哭泣！ 假如你的生命里有这样一个女孩,她既不漂亮,也不温柔,但她很可爱，和她在一起的日子你很快乐。 很遗憾她不是你喜欢的那种女孩，她始终无法带给你那种心跳的感觉。 在你的生命里，她只是充当了一个过客的角色，来则来，走也不会给你留下任何感情的纠葛。 女孩有时很调皮，约好一起骑车去郊游，见了面却发现原来她是要你带著她走。 说好一起去看电影，可到了电影院门口，她却说忘了带票，然后让你陪她流浪街头到午夜。 她会在约你不成时，偷偷将一枚发卡放在你的衣兜里，第二天再打电话让你把发卡给她送去。。。。。 女孩有时也很乖，她会静静的听你说话，望著你的眼睛发呆，如凝视一尊唯美的雕像。 有时你也会告诉她： "其实你也挺很可爱。" "是么？"女孩笑道。 然后一脸的遗憾："可爱有什么用，我爱的人又不爱我"。 "你爱上谁了？"你一脸的疑惑。 女孩笑而不答。 你曾认为你们的友谊如钢铁长城般坚不可摧，你也为有这样一位红粉知己而暗自庆幸。 她对你关怀倍至，而你也视她为你的哥们，她的事你也总是义不容辞。 女孩有时也很烦，她总是不厌其烦的给你打电话，让你陪她去这去那，而不管你的心情有多坏。 她总是让你陪她吃这吃那，全然不顾你的胃口有多糟。 她也总能让你吃下许多奇怪的食品，让你充当她的实验品，替她尝那些看似美味，但却不知味道如何的街边小吃。 不过女孩其实也很好，每次旅行回来总不忘给你带回一些小礼物，或是一串佛珠，或是一只海螺，都是美丽精巧,虽然它们在你的手里总是会不知去向。 她也会在你生病的时候把几盒上好的药用洁白的手绢包好放在你的桌子上，并不忘准时给你打电话，提醒你吃药。 时间一天天过去，女孩的关怀也越来越无微不至，似乎有点超出了作为朋友而应有的界限。 渐渐的你开始担心,担心一些不该发生的事会发生...... 有一天，女孩问你： "如果有一天我离开了你，你会伤心么？" 你坚决的回答到： "不会！" "为什么？" "因为你不是我的女朋友。" "那我做你的女朋友吧？" 你一脸真诚的回答道： "我想我们还是作朋友比较好,如果你选择离开,我会为你祝福." 女孩依然快乐如以往，只是眼里似乎多了一丝忧郁。 女孩给你打电话的次数少了。 你们见面的次数与她电话的个数成正比。 因为她永远不可能成为你生活的主旋律，所以你从不给她打电话。 即使很长时间不见面，你也没有觉得有什么不对。 你已经习惯了她的主动。 那年的圣诞节，女孩送给你一条白色的围巾，她告诉你这是她织成的第一件成品，费了很多功夫的。 你不肯收。女孩说: “收下吧,这里的冬天很冷的.” 情人节的那天,女孩送你一条皮带,你又不肯收,女孩说: “别以为我要栓住你,我不会自作多情的,只是见你成天用朋友的皮带怕人家心里不愿意,嘴上又不好意思说,才给你买了一条送给你，你可千万别多心。” 以后的日子.女孩越来越多的凝望你的眼.每次分手的时候都会恋恋不舍,好象每次分手都是永诀，走时还不忘问你: "不想对我说点什么吗?" "天黑了,路上小心点。"你一脸的关切. "谢谢"女孩微笑道,声音里有一点苦涩. 望著她消失在夜幕中的背影, 你自言自语到: "你真傻." 她在你的生命里已经存在了很久,当她渐渐远离你的时候,你也没有在乎过,因为你不爱她.你们是朋友，也只是朋友。 "以前我们在一起的日子很快乐不是么?" "是的,很快乐." "那你有没有烦过我?" "说实话,有过." "难道你没有觉得我对你的感情超过了作为朋友的界限?" "没有呀,我觉得我们是模范好朋友." 你撒谎了.女孩停了下来等你.你晃了半天才走到她的身边. "唉,我担心的事终于要发生了,她的自制力怎么这么差,我们本可以是很好的朋友的.有一个异性知己多不容易呀.看来我们的友谊就要到此为止了." 此时,你的心情复杂. 女孩忽然转过身来,望著你.片刻后,说道: "我爱你.""哦，我们现在不是模范好朋友了." "我爱你"女孩倔强的又说了一遍. "那又能怎么样呢?" 你抬起耷了了半天的眼睛,直视女孩火辣辣的目光. 女孩扭过头去,半天没有说一句话. "你爱我么?"女孩开始继续向前走. "不爱."这种拒绝你早已是轻车熟路. "你以后会爱我么?" "不会." "为什么?" "我们相处的日子不短了,我要是爱你.早就爱了,不会等到现在."你苦口婆心的说道。 “如果你爱我,你会告诉我么?” “当然会,如果我早爱上了你,不到中午‘我爱你’这三个字,我就会对你说过不下100次了.” 女孩停下了脚步,你也停在了离她不远的一个花池边,拿出一只烟,点著...... 女孩一直没有说话,也没有继续向前走.你知道她在哭.渐渐的她哭的声音越来越大她一边哭,一边说: “我就知道会是这样,我早就知道.” 她泣不成声的告诉你,她曾是多么的爱你.而又不敢告诉你,她不奢望得到你的爱,她只是想告诉你,她爱你爱了很久很久.和你在一起的日子快乐也痛苦.每次望著你的时候,就会觉得你近在咫尺而又远在天涯,爱你爱了这么久,可却一点也不了解你.你总是对关于自己的事绝口不提,让她觉得你的心离她很远很远.虽然你就在她的身边. 她说她爱你爱的很辛苦,所有你们在一起的快乐日子都成了她痛苦的根源,无时不思,无刻不想,连梦里也不得安静,她的脑海里装满了你的影子,挥之不去.想你的时候,两只手疯狂拍打自己的头,却也无法摆脱对你思念的苦。 她哭了很久很久,哭的很痛很痛,说的每一句话都是夹杂著她的抽泣.那是一种感情的宣泄,那止不住的泪水就向对你的爱如滔滔江水般破堤而出.每一滴泪都是爱的宣言. “为什么要对你掉眼泪，你难道不明白是为了爱... ...”

PROVERBS 16:22 *NIV

PRIDE GOES BEFORE DESTRUCTION, AND A HAUGHTY SPIRIT BEFORE A FALL.( PROVERBS 16:22 *NIV ) We are to humble ourselves, and not let our pride or ego get in the way when dealing with others. For it is written: WHOEVER EXALTS HIMSELF WILL BE HUMBLED, AND WHOEVER HUMBLES HIMSELF WILL BE EXALTED. ( MATTHEW 23:12 ) For, GOD OPPOSES THE PROUD BUT GIVES GRACE TO THE HUMBLE. ( JAMES 4:6 ) So never let your pride or ego convince you that you are more righteous than another. After all, we are all God's Children and He loves each of us equally! THEREFORE LET US STOP PASSING JUDGMENT ON ONE ANOTHER. INSTEAD, MAKE UP YOUR MIND NOT TO PUT ANY STUMBLING BLOCK OR OBSTACLE IN YOUR BROTHER'S WAY. ( ROMANS 14:13 ) Also remember the words of our Savior Jesus Christ, for He said of the end time: MANY WHO ARE FIRST WILL BE LAST, AND MANY WHO ARE LAST WILL BE FIRST.( MATTHEW 19:30 ) Therefore, as God's Child we should: HUMBLE YOUR- SELVES BEFORE THE LORD AND HE WILL LIFT YOU UP. ( JAMES 4:10 ) FOR THE LORD TAKES DELIGHT IN HIS PEOPLE; HE CROWNS THE HUMBLE WITH SALVATION. Amen. ( PSALM 149:4 ) Have a Wonderful Day, and may God Bless You!

ROMANS 8:28 *NIV

AND WE KNOW THAT IN ALL THINGS GOD WORKS FOR THE GOOD OF THOSE WHO LOVE HIM, WHO ARE CALLED ACCORDING TO HIS PURPOSE. ( ROMANS 8:28 *NIV ) We are all called to do something in this life sooner or later! Perhaps your calling is that of a Doctor, Lawyer, or Mother and Housekeeper. Whatever your calling may be, if you truly love doing what you are doing, then you are probably doing God's Will for your life right now. If not then God probably hasn't called you yet. Now it is important to remember that God works in all things, not just in isolated incidents! However that does not mean that all that happens to us is good, for evil is prevalent in this World of ours today. This is because: YOUR ENEMY THE DEVIL PROWLS AROUND LIKE A ROARING LION LOOKING FOR SOMEONE TO DEVOUR. ( 1 PETER 5:8 ) So, WHAT THEN, SHALL WE SAY IN RESPONSE TO THIS? IF GOD IS FOR US, WHO CAN BE AGAINST US? (ROMANS 8:31) For it is written: RESIST THE DEVIL, AND HE WILL FLEE FROM YOU! ( JAMES 4:7 ) So,next time the Devil, that old serpent, tries to bother you tell him to take a hike! After all you are a Child of God, and God has given satan this warning: DO NOT TOUCH MY ANOINTED ONES! ( 1 CHRONICLES 16:22 ) So again I say: RESIST THE DEVIL, AND HE WILL FLEE FROM YOU! Amen.

JAMES 4:10 *NIV

HUMBLE YOURSELVES BEFORE THE LORD, AND HE WILL LIFT YOU UP. ( JAMES 4:10 *NIV ) Sometimes we all become depressed because of things that happen in our lives. For sometimes we feel: WE ARE HARD PRESSED ON EVERY SIDE, BUT NOT CRUSHED; PERPLEXED, BUT NOT ABANDONED; STRUCK DOWN, BUT NOT DESTROYED. ( 2 CORINTHIANS 4:8-10 ) Now when you feel the pressures of life remember the words of king David, for he wrote: THOUGH I WALK IN THE MIDST OF TROUBLE, YOU PRESERVE MY LIFE; YOU STRETCH OUT YOUR HAND AGAINST THE ANGER OF MY FOES, WITH YOUR RIGHT HAND YOU SAVE ME. ( PSALM 138:7 ) THEREFORE WE DO NOT LOSE HEART. FOR OUR LIGHT AND MOMENTARY TROUBLES ARE ACHIEVING FOR US AN ETERNAL GLORY THAT FAR OUTWEIGHS THEM ALL. SO WE FIX OUR EYES NOT ON WHAT IS SEEM, BUT WHAT IS UNSEEN. FOR WHAT IS SEEN IS TEMPORARY, BUT WHAT IS UNSEEN IS ETERNAL. ( 2 CORINTHIANS 4:16-18 ) So, HUMBLE YOURSELF, THEREFORE, UNDER GOD'S MIGHTY HAND, THAT HE MAY LIFT YOU UP IN DUE TIME. CAST ALL YOUR ANXIETY ON HIM BECAUSE HE CARES FOR YOU! ( 1 PETER 5:6-7 )

~ hey ... ~

hey guys ... I so miss you guys lar when i view back my blog ... is really a blessed trip with you all ... the memory keep play back in my mind ... the time , the dance , the laughing ... so miss ... ^^ .. Hopefully can see you guys again ... people come and people go ... lots of my frens went back to where they from and where they belongs to ... feeling kinda sad ... ^^ ... hey ya ... do take care and love ya ... !

Is about ~ Time ~

yup...is about time to give up... something i though i can get back but at last i loose it also... As in my msn said ... "giving up meaning that i take up a new challenges in my life ... so it will be a good things ..." And in d other way~can said is a new starting ... ^^ ... Don worry~i'm strong coz i knew that GOD Is with me... and He must have a great plan for me... I just need to be passion and search & earn for it... Lord,by your grace ... i can felt that i became stronger and stronger each day ... is not about me or others ... but is YOU... People might break my heart ... steal my hope ... & ... peace ... but ... You are there to restore it ... as long i keep holding on and count on You ... I cant understand why people so like to break people heart .. i don't think is a fun action to hurt people especially to people we love ... but anyway ... i did my best for them ... Is hard to please people while this pleasing action is against our principal ... So ~ what i need to do is ...stand firm and be passion for the future ... To "someone".. i did my best ... really ...! Just ... this really not what i want ... ! I really need to move on ... if continue like this ... i will getting crazy and lost ~ ! I withdraw myselves seriously now ... ^_^ ... i'm sorry ...! i know u will become better and happier ... if without me in your lives ... move on ... frens ...! God bless you ... ! Thanks for the time and moment we spent together ... !

~ Lives ~

Live is very precious ... plz appreciate it ... !!! God gave us lives for us to learn a lesson from Him and become more like Him ... So ... please use this live and use it mightily ... as God plan .. !!! ~ all man .. Remember this ... We are here to live a life ... not spent a life ... ! I waste alot of my life's time ... so from now on ... i want to use it ... as God want it to be ... !

~ 为何 ~

失望 ~ 抱着希望但却再次的失望。。。 失败 ~ 尝试着改变却再次的失败。。。 过去，现在，未来。。。又有什么分别。。。 为何又再次出现在我已经决定要放弃的那一刻， 为何出现了，却又再次的令我失望，让我再次尝试失败的痛苦？ 为何不彻底的离开。。。？ 是不是玩弄了我过后，会让你过的更开心。。。？ 但是，我告诉你， 我可不是随便让别人玩弄的， 我也有自尊，和尊严。。。 所以拜托，没什么事就别再来惹我。。。 因为“心”是最尊贵的，并不是拿来让你玩弄的。。。 或许我是误会了，但请你也注意一下你自己的态度。。。 好吗？

Dan~shi~neun Sa~rang Bat~gi~wi~hae...

Dangshineun Sarang Batgiwihae

Tae Eo Nan Saram

Dangshineui(e) Sarm So geseo

Gue Sarang Batgoitjiyo

~ Great fun together ~

When we are on the way to Keningau .. there is a small kampung there .. ard 6-7 houses only ..

Because of the bus's tyre broken .. so the team went down and play with the kids there ..

~ Great fun together ~

~ Going back to town ~

Inside Keningau town ..

Something happened on the last day ..

The bus driver suddenly change their mind not to coming Labang to take us .. coz the road condition too bad (i guess) .. so we need to find others transport ..

The ketua kampung and others kampung ppl take the initiative to send us back to Keningau .. then from there .. we take another bus to going back to town .. (KK)

Here is the Keningau Bus Station ..^_^..

Finally we found one .. hhe .. (",) .. surely God is with us .. we are on our way back to Tobobon, Menggatal ... Cheers ..^_^.. Inside UMS .. we went and visit UMS .. They so like the seaview .. Truly .. all God's creation are wonderful .. We took lots of photo in UMS .. to keep our memory together and of course .. God still our "all" ..^^.. We went to BCCM Inanam .. on the next two night ... ^_^ ..

Preaching by Ps.Kim came in ...

And so with the Drama , dance & worship .. will surely get some photo from them then upload here

.. ^_^ ..

There message behind all came in very strong .. really for those who heard it .. ^_^ ..

Let God's will be done ... & done through us ..

Not by my will but His will ..

Amen .. ^_^ ..

<--- This are Korea Culture Dance and they wearing "hanbuk" ..

<--- Culture Wear & Dance + the worship song with it ...

I Invited them to attend my church sunday service on the last day they stayed here .. ^_^ ..

I'm glad that some of them are really enjoyed the service and stir by the word of God .. ^_^ ..

And i also introduced them to some of my cell member .. just that time too short and they really need to move on to others place .. ^_^..

~ Glad to know you all .. ^_^ .. once again from bottom of my heart .. ~

Hehe .. ~ .. says "cheers .."!

I love you .. & .. God love you too ..

Sa~rang~hae ..

I Love you ..

Saya Cinta Mu ..

Ais~ tae~ru ..

~ .. Brothers & Sisters in Christ .. ~

Christine & others Labang's kids .. So lovely .. ^_^ .. Christine & Sakiah .. She is the one joined us for few days in Labang and she also a worship leader in BCCM Inanam ~ BM Congregation ..^_^.. Ps. Joel .. Ps. Samuel Lee .. Ps. Julius & Ketua Lampung in Labang .. ^_^ .. Sakiah .. Ps.Joel .. Sis. Rostinah .. & Bro. David .. ~~ Brothers & Sisters in Christ .. ^_^ .. Let us join & bind our heart together to do the Work of God .. Serve Him with all our heart, mind & soul .. There is no boundary and limitation in God's Kingdom .. Amen ..^_^ ..

~ Waiting ~

Waiting .. there are still more to come .. ya .. Love ya .. ^_^ ..

Ellie & Kids in Labang ..Love ya ..^_^..

~ Cheers kids ..^_^.. i miss you all .... Kids .. look ..! Camera ... ^_^ .. hehe .. ^_^ .. come on ..~ I Love this Photo ... very very much ..! .. ^_^ .. She is the gal very sticked to me .. And i tried to approached her to go and worship and dance together .. with d others kids .. Wow .. she is great in dance and sing to the Lord .. ! Just she is very shy .. ^_^ .. I Love all of you .. i want to go back and visit all this little child .. ^_^ .. I believe God is doing something really great in their lives .. even they are staying in a inner area but God using them in every area .. ^_^ .. Love .. Faith .. Purity .. (",)

~ Labang Trip's Photo ~

Performance ~ Is a drama actually ..

(they used TaeKwanDo torepresent the meaning of the Drama .. ^_^ ..) Some of the Korean they tried to dance the local dance ~ Sumasau

.. ^_^ .. Teached by local people there .. And we have a culture exchange thru the dance .. hehe ..~ Soo Hee tried to play the "Gong" .. She actually is a drummer .. so out of expectation .. "geng.." Can't imagine she is a drummer .. haha ^_^

No wonder she so xcited abt the "Gong" .. ^_^ We all done our best to repainted the church in Labang .. ^_^ ..

Great time and enjoyed it ..~

Now the New image of the church ..

Same as us .. back to young age .. haha .. ^_^ ..

We need to keep our heart young in the things of God .. Always get xcited and committed in the things of God ..

When the time we felt that our colour is fade away .. we need to repaint it thru the Colour of God .. So that our lives will be as colourful as the colour that given by God .. ^_^ ..

Gambateh guys .. ^_^ ..

There are more to come ... Waiting ya ..^_^..

3rd Batch ~ Mission Trip's Photo ^_^

On the way to another kampung .. ^_^ .. Prayed for the elder and sick people .. We took boat to the inner area of Labang , to go and visited them .. Around 15-20 minutes (i guess~) We been to 2 different kampung in there .. ^_^ .. My pants get wet due to the boat got water came in ... haha ~^_^~ Another church .. also a branch of "BCCM" .. Keep it up guys ..^_^.. We ready for the "mini olympic" .. when we back to Labang .. Not only kids but we (big children) also very xcited abt it .. ^_^ ..

3th Batch ~ Mission Trip Photo

Ellie & Sakiah (We both are Malaysian) ..

Ellie .. trying her best to translate the word ..

&

Sakiah .. also trying her very best to get translation from Ellie ..

Hehe .. good time to worked together ..

Keep thinking ... what so attracked me .. ???

Question mark flying ard my head now ... ???
wow ... LABANG ...

WE WILL BE BACK ..!

but .. do~wo~yo (very hot ..)

haha ..^_^..

2nd batch ~ Mission Trip photo ..

Bro. Kensiro .. he brings alot of fun to me .. he did like a big brother to me .. and he really taking care of me when i'm with the team ..

He jokes alot but i knew that he is a great people of God coz he is very humble guy and always give the glory back to the Lord ..

The way he approached kids also amazed me .. he is a "big child" .. every little kids likes him very much ..~~


Sugar .. Ellie .. & John ..

Guys .. remember "aza .. aza .." ya ..!

~ Love you .. ~
Ps. Joel .. he is a korean pastor but he choose to stay in Kota Kinabalu .. he is the one that always encourage me and b'coz of him, i able to joined this trip ..

Thanks alot .. pastor ..!


Kim DongJoo .. Ellie & Ps.Joel ..

Thanks bro ... even though we didn't talk much but we did have a great time together rite ..!

remember keep in touch ya ..!

..^_^ ..
Big .. big .. big .. brother ..!

hehe ..^-^..

加油！金东柱！
Ps.joel .. ellie & john ..!

John .. thanks for the time in island ..

You are really a funny man ..
will visit your blog and leave some comment there ..

So ... "aza .. aza .."

Thanks ... alot for the time you all spent with me .. !

1st batch ~ Mission Trip photo ..

DaBin & Ellie ..

hehe ..^^.. can't remember what we are focus on and laughed at .. till people took photo on us olso don't know .. ^_^ ..
Ps. Kim .. Christine .. Ellie & Belle ..

Plz guys .. take good care ya ..

I'm so miss you all here .. ^^ ..

Gambateh .. and continue to run the race for the Lord .. ok ..!

<3<3<3


Me & Belle ..

We getting closer each and everyday .. and we did talked alot too ..

So miss the day we spent together ..

"aza .. aza .. "

Sol ~ little cute sister for me .. she is the youngest one in our team but i do appreciated her so much coz she is really trying her best to communication with me , to talked to me .. and even called me "ellie oni .."
& holding my hand ..

so warm & sweet .. luv u ..^_^ ..

Belle .. luv you too ..!

~ fighting ~ in India as well ya ..~

dabin & Ellie ..

She is also one of the youngest from our team .. appreciated her so much also coz she did called me from korea and she really treat me as her sister ..
Calling me then holding my hand too ..

Warm & Sweet ..

we did chat alot too ..

bin .. sure will call you when i visit korea next time ..

~ Great Week ~

Is been a great week for me .. (20th-27th July 2008) .. will remember these day .. coz i'm bless and i see God ..God's love .. God's grace .. God's promises .. God's everything .. Thru this week .. i hav been gained back my confident .. ~ due to something happened recently,i hav lost all my confident in dealing with ppl .. coz i hav lost confident in talking with ppl,to build relationship wif ppl even my colleage,family member,frens,and others .. ~ ppl might see i'm strong & still d same but actually there are many holes inside oledi .. But really thanks God for He had send me to the battle field (the mission trip) .. i'm not only giving but at the same time i'm receiving .. and the receiving is more than wat i gav .. ~ Quite tired but i believe everyone there are so enjoyed and happy .. we all worked together .. no you or me .. but is HIM, our dear Daddy in heaven .. ~ In just a short week , we able to built a close relationship within one another, its really by God's grace and indeed it take me and them to use our heart and take our initiative to work it out .. haha ..^^ .. why? coz we are from different culture and background and different language .. its really take both side to work on it .. T.T .. i'm so touched by them .. and i really love them .. a~za .. a~za .. ^^ ..

~ c.H.a.n.G. ~

frens .. alot of change in our live .. cg .. frens circle .. family and alot alot .. ppl come & ppl go .. truely,if we not hold it strongly .. we will fall apart .. ! no matter how , do gambateh ^_^ and fight for it .. for Him .. for ourself .. for our future .. ok ~ God is everywhere .. no matter where we go , as long He is still in us .. then He is there .. I received a sms from one of my xprimary classmate , the sms was like below :- 生命中，输给谁都好，就是不要输给自己！ 那会让你后悔莫及 。。。 。。。 要过的幸福就该拼命去争取，^_^ 不管结局如何，有努力过的人生都是最美丽的 .. ^_^ .. So 加油哟！

~ 想太多 - 李玖哲 ~

你笑着说 他是朋友 但你眼中太温柔 我的不安 那么沉重 只有你不懂 他霸占了你的心中 属于我的角落 所以你说 我们 不是你和我 是我想太多 你总这样说 但你却没有 真的心疼我 是我想太多 我也这样说 这是唯一能安慰我的理由 他霸占了你的心中 属于我的角落 所以你说 我们 不是你和我 是我想太多 你总这样说 但你却没有 真的心疼我 是我想太多 我也这样说 这是唯一能安慰我的理由 我想我没有 错怪了什么 虽然你不说 或许错在我 太晚我才懂 爱了你太多 是我想太多 你总这样说 但你却没有 真的心疼我 是我想太多 我也这样说 这是唯一能安慰我的理由

~ Awakeness ~ of mind ..

July 14 This year .. 2008 .. is been a very tough year for me .. ! Lots of things happened , loose lots of things specially myself .. But i gain a precious things in my life oso .. which is HIM ~ my Lord .. Been thru alot .. juz found that i really put God away all this while .. asked Him to came in but ignore Him .. His advise , His words , The relationship with Him .. Sorry .. Sorry .. +_+ .. I do love You , my Lord ..! I believe thru all this circumstances .. I can stand even more stronger in You .. I want to and i desire too .. But Lord , i loose my strength .. i need Your strength .. Teach me how .. guide me how .. Since year 2008 started , i told my leaders this year i will be more focus on my own life building coz there is a little voice told me that "this year alot of things going to happen to you , be strong .. and learn from the mistake .. this yaer oso a year of turning for you .. if you can successfully overcome all this then u will grow stronger and breakthru in the Lord .. but if you cant .. you will be getting away from the Lord slowly .. so love urself , build urself , and be firm no matter wats come out , .." Cell member are important,they all are precious to me .. everyone are precious to me .. But if my own life oso break down then how can i build others .. +_+ .. I want to be an assets but not liability in God's kingdom ..... ^_^ .. i want .. i really want .. There is only two main things i can do now .. a) Die to self .. b) Turn back to God .. I know that is very hard .. But "no pain no gain" .. Can i make it .. this year ? Can i .. ?

Felt ~ +_+ ~

No energy ... Look ard ppeople ard me ... My family .. my cell grp .. my frens .. my colleage ... Cant breathe .. need a long time break ..

~ I know elLie more now ~

Your view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. The seriousness of your love: Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. Your views on education Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. The right job for you: You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. How do you view success: You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel. Who is your true self: You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

~ 命中注定 ~

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